I don’t know why, but I can feel myself changing

I thought I’d start writing this while waiting for Jason’s call. He said he’d call me at 6 p.m. today but I thought he wouldn’t be able to get through, so I had dinner with Charlie (who is a girl, mind you =P) right after the ORSEM. Apparently, Jason was able to call, or at least I think he was. Krista told me a guy called when I was away and although she said he’d call back in an hour, she didn’t get his name and it might have been Chris. Not that I mind Chris calling me up, but I miss Jason a lot. We haven’t talked for over a day now. Speaking of Chris, I was able to hang out with him a little before today’s ORSEM started. He called me on my cellphone while I was walking to Ateneo to let me know that he was going to the ORSEm. Seeing him again felt great, particularly because I really wasn’t expecting him to show up today. I didn’t get to run into him again after this morning though; it was just too damn crowded in the gym and we both had to sit at opposite ends.

Today’s ORSEM was all right. Way too hot as usual, but my blockmates were a tad more talkative this time so at least it wasn’t as boring as yesterday. I found out that the girl in my block who looks a little like Devon Aoki and reminds me of Claire from Six Feet Under is actually Gil’s sister. Small freaking country, the Philippines. O_o I’m getting along well with everyone, even though I don’t really talk to all of them. I dunno…I’m not really one of those people who feel a need to be acquainted with everyone. I’m already happy knowing that there are two people in the block that I can really talk to. And maybe we can even have a real friendship, which is far better than being a popular figure in Ateneo society.

I think I might have found two orgs that I want to join, aside from the Social Science org. I’m definitely trying out for the Guidon (the university newspaper), though I think there’s a very slim chance of me getting in. I haven’t done any real writing in a very long time, and I’m sure that everyone else who will try out will have more talent than me. But whatever…no harm in giving it a chance. I can always cry my eyes out if I don’t make it, right? The other org I want to be in is the peer counselling one at the guidance center. I don’t know why I like listening to other people’s problems and helping them out. I think it’s because it gets my mind off my own problems and makes me feel very grateful that I don’t have to go through what a lot of other people have to deal with. Really, there are a lot of things I should be thankful for. I take a lot of stuff for granted.

Last night, I managed to gather some energy from out of nowhere so that I could go to Mia’s gig at Kafe. I didn’t stay for long because Jason said he’d call, and since the show hadn’t even started when I left, I wasn’t able to see Mia perform. But even if I didn’t have to go home early, I would’ve left at around that time anyway. I realized that the local band thing isn’t really my thing anymore.

My newly-washed hair smelled faintly of cigarette smoke afterwards. =P