I wonder if everything could ever feel this real forever

April 1st, 2003 with 131 views

That stupid Tatu song is running through my head. MAKE IT STOP!!!

I had lunch at Cibo with Carlo yesterday, and then went to Enchanted Kingdom with my cousins a couple of hours later. I haven’t been to EK since my first year of high school and other than a few new rides, not much has changed about it. I really must be getting old because I suddenly felt rather dizzy after an hour and a half of going on rides nonstop. Either that, or I didn’t eat that much food all day. Of course, I made sure that I made up for it during dinnertime. It was funny though..because during the last half hour the park was open, my cousins and I rode on the Rio Grande like three times. The Rio Grande is this water ride where you get really wet. After each ride, we’d all race back and fight to get the best seats on the boat thingie. God I felt like I was eight years old again, fighting with my cousins and running around in wet clothes like that. To think that I was wearing white pants! But there was hardly anyone around anyway. I ran so much that the strap of my favorite sandals broke…and they weren’t cheap sandals, either. So last night was the second night in a row I arrived home in sopping wet clothes. It’s a good thing I brought an extra top along with me, or I would’ve turned into an ice cube in my aunt’s car. We were all shivering during the ride home.

Jason and I had our first sort-of argument today. Well, it wasn’t really an argument…more like a misunderstanding. I was teasing him about something and the insensitive person that I am, I didn’t realize that he’d react that way. For a moment there, I was really worried since he was quite upset about it. It even seemed like he was mad at me cos he signed off AIM right away. That saddened me a lot…sometimes I really do think I should just shut up. But less than half an hour later he signed back on to apologize. And we’re okay about it now, thank God. I’m glad we were able to clear up the air because if we didn’t, I’d probably be staying up half the night analyzing the entire conversation and trying to see where I went wrong.

I love him so much…I never thought that my jaded self could ever love someone the way I love Jason ever again.

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2 Responses to “I wonder if everything could ever feel this real forever”

suezye on April 1, 2003 09:38 pm
hey lauren,

i read your site “fated” and its kinda cute.

i can really see that you and jason were so in love with each other and i wish you both luck and happiness.

i have a long distance relationship before but its kinda different. the guy is my best friend in high school, a lifter in our pep squad. he went to the states and during that time we emailed and IM ed constantly and the relationship developed online. he called often and mailed me gift packages. eventually he decided to spend the relationship with me in person and so he decided to go home. i could not write the rest of the story because it has a novel type quality with twists and turns.

i just hope that your face to face meeting with jason will not turn out the way mine did.

BTW have u read the book the road less traveled? i recommend it for u to read. it’s a good book.

best wishes
nikkiana on April 2, 2003 01:34 pm
I ended up buying the TATU CD because that stinking song kept running through my head… And now all their other songs on the CD are running through my head… They’re infectious… and much better in Russian.