Are you gonna waste your time thinking about how you missed out?

I’m back from yet another morning of extremely boring graduation rehearsals. Good thing today’s the last of it, and I have nothing to do tomorrow except attend my sister’s Recognition Day. I still have absolutely zero sentimental feelings about graduating from high school. I thought that by now I’d be getting all teary-eyed about leaving my friends, and while I’m already starting to miss them it’s still not something I’l cry over. I suppose I could pinch my arm really hard or something during the graduation ceremony so that at least one tear will fall and I won’t seem like a freaking icicle.

Kriya’s eighteenth birthday party is tonight, and I completely forgot about it until somebody asked me if I was going. Yesterday I was debating on whether or not I should show up because I had changed my mind about the whole party thing. And it didn’t help when I found out that my insignificant other is invited as well. She is the very last person I want to see tonight. We’re not really “rivals” anymore but we aren’t exactly friends either, and she still annoys me very much. Particularly the way she talks about herself all the time, and how she always goes out of her way in order to get some attention (pa-pansin).

It’s so weird…three years ago, I had to totally beg my parents to let me go out at night. Now I couldn’t care less if I never step inside another bar or club again. I suppose I’m just tired of being with the same shallow girls, the same obnoxious guys, and pretty much with the whole superficiality of the scene. But I decided to be a hypocrite and go to Kriya’s birthday tonight cos at least it’s a lot better than staying at home. Besides, Tracy and Maan might be there. If my kind of people are around, then it won’t be so bad. And who knows? Maybe I’ll actually have a good time. I can’t spend my golden teenage years just languishing in my room.

You know if there’s something I don’t like about myself, it’s that I can be too compassionate.

Jason and I have a blog together! Go to http://fated.the-protagonist.net.