My inspiration has gone dry
Something kind of cool just happened. Late last year I made a soundtrack for one of my favorite books, Girl Walking Backwards by Bett Williams. A friend of mine gave me that book one day. From out of nowhere. It’s not the kind of book that would appeal to everyone, but I really like it. I’ve read it like, a million times. I suppose it’s because I’m very fascinated by the kind of life Skye lives, and all the cool people she knows. Because I can see myself in her in many ways, I like to think of Skye as my wild, reckless, gay alter-ego. I thought of making a mix for the book because certain parts of it reminded me of songs that I know. So around October I posted the track list on my blog and then forgot about it. But today, Bett Williams herself found the tracklist when she did a search and actually commented on my blog, asking for a copy of the CD! Well I’m still not sure if it’s really her or just some psycho pretending to be her, but I think I’ll take a risk and send her a copy anyway. I mean, it would be very cool if it really were her.
Girl Walking Backwards kind of inspired me to write the coming of age novel lurking somewhere within the depths of my imagination. Although I have this really vague idea on what it will be about, I haven’t gotten around to writing it yet. Actually I did, but I seem to be suffering from a really bad case of writer’s block. Or low self-esteem, I don’t know. I try to write a page, and while I’m writing it it sounds okay to me. But then I read it all over again and I’d think, “Ugh. This is so trite. No one will want to read this shit!” And then I delete the entire thing and abandon my dreams of becoming a novelist someday. *sigh* It’s depressing, really, to be a writer that has nothing to write about.
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wow. it must be really something if it’s really her.
as for the writing, keep at it. you will succeed eventually.
Hehe… new URL, and it’s urs lauren.
Lauren, Never stop writing because you think you’re not good enough or your story sucks or something like that. Writers write because they want to, not because they want to please someone with it.
Let your story come out. Let other people worry about how to think about it.
oh, and I can find out if that person is really Bett Williams or not if you wish.
Me thinks the same as victor too. To me, you are a beautiful writer and I just know that if u put your mind to it, you can be a famous writer someday.
Just learn to be less and less uptight everyday and enjoy whoever and whatever comes your way.
I think there’s some truth to the cliche about “why worry? everything’s bound to happen, will happen anyway?” or something to that effect.
so smile, write, rant rave and sleep contentedly.