All in all it was a pretty nice day

I spent the whole day at a resort in Bulacan with several cast members of Aida and the whole experience wasn’t as bad as I anticipated it to be. I thought I’d feel left out or something because a lot of the girls there fawn over the guys and the weird-ass director, and I hate it cos they look like groupies and it’s like they’re this little clique. But I actually enjoyed myself today. I spent most of the morning swimming. I haven’t soaked myself in water and chlorine since two Decembers ago and I’ve become quite rusty. Even though I did a couple of laps, I felt like I was badly out of form. Not only that, but I also felt incredibly ugly. Well, not ugly really. More like highly unattractive compared to the girls I was hanging out with that morning. They all looked so good in their swimsuits. I looked like a hippopotamus trying to impersonate a teenage girl. I dunno. I don’t normally stress over my body; in fact there are times when I actually think that I need to gain weight. I suppose it’s cos exposing parts of my body that I don’t normally show to the rest of the world makes me feel quite awkward. The thing is, when I look at myself in the mirror at my room, I think I look good. But put me in a two-piece at a public pool, and I can totally see my flesh jiggle as I walk. It’s not a nice thing to see.

I spent the entire afternoon chilling inside one of the rooms at the resort with most of the seniors in the play. We talked, ate butong pakwan (watermelon seeds), and pretended to gang-rape whoever entered the room. It was crazy. I don’t like most of my batchmates, but those who are in the play are okay by me.

Kriya told me that she’s gonna be studying at La Salle after all. I’m real glad she decided to enter the real world like the rest of us. I also learned that there would be four other people from my batch who going to Ateneo next schoolyear. All of them are honor students who will be taking up management courses. I felt so un-geeky. I tried to room with one of them; maybe her vibes and study habits will rub off on me. But unfortunately, her dad didn’t allow her to stay in an off-campus dorm for her first sem. Damn.

So yeah..no gimmicks planned this weekend. I think I’m gonna go to bed early today. I hardly had any sleep last night, and it was too noisy in the room to get even a minute’s rest. I tried to take a nap in the bus but the ride was just way too bumpy and my seat was very uncomfortable.