This city drove me crazy and I must get out

February 21st, 2003 with 140 views

For the first time in weeks, I’m gonna be staying home tonight. Everywhere people are going to bars or parties or having love lives while I sit here trying to analyze chapter 25 of El Filibusterismo while listening to The Weakerthans. I feel so left out.

I’m going with Angelica and Patsy to the UA&P Freshmen Orientation tomorrow. No, I don’t plan on studying there or anything. I’m only going cos I don’t really have anything better to do tomorrow, and who knows–I’ll probably meet some cool people. Probably. Patsy says all the cute guys and pretty girls will be present because it’s the Freshmen Orientation. And now I’m totally stressing over what to wear. Why?? Because I know all the girls there will be prettier than me–specially now that my skin is breaking out and my body’s slightly bloated–and all the guys I will like will be waaaay out of my league. If I can’t be as pretty as all the girls, then at least my clothes should be as good as theirs. Problem is, I dunno what to wear. It seems like the rest of the world has seen me wear the same tops and jeans a million times over. I haven’t gone shopping in ages and I’m so bored with everything I have. And the thing is, I didn’t use to care about trivial stuff like this. Usually, I’d just wear the first thing I see. But for some reason I’m suddenly so self-conscious about my physical appearance. I hate it.

(I think I might be regressing to my thirteen-year old self. At least I don’t worry about matching nail polish anymore.)

Patsy might end up going to UA&P since Kriya already decided to go there because of the crowd and the location. I swear, if I had to choose between UAP and La Salle, I’d still pick La Salle even if walking down Taft Avenue looks kind of scary. Well, that’s her choice. *shrugs* It’s weird. During my early high school years, I always thought that Kriya was this very cool and mature person. Now I find her just plain superficial. She’s fun to be with, but very snobby. She acts like only good-looking guys have the right to be her friend. I find that very stupid.

Anyway, if Kapst gets a slot, then she’ll be my only friend from high school who will go to Ateneo. If not….then I’m all by myself.

I can’t decide whether I should be excited or scared.

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Forgot to add that I have christened this website “Ang Talaarawan Ni Daria Adarna”. Click here to see why.

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7 Responses to “This city drove me crazy and I must get out”

BLOGGED ---at the-protagonist.net on February 21, 2003 08:50 pm
[...] ws–I’ll probably meet some cool people. Probably.[read more? lauryn @ 09:49 am [...]
Victor on February 22, 2003 03:37 am
well, being apprehensive is normal. dont worry, i dont think youll not find good friends in college
Magda on February 22, 2003 05:35 am
I’ve just noticed me at your blogged. Haven’t seen that before.:)
Kat on February 22, 2003 09:21 am
college will be great for you! i luv the new daria layout.
Margaux on February 22, 2003 03:13 pm
hmmm… i was the only one in my barkada who got to UP and yeah, it sucked during the first few weeks. good thing i had some other high school friends with me there. but i eventually found new friends and it’s all great. i’m sure you’ll meet lots of new friends in college.
rina on February 23, 2003 01:03 pm
Hehe, my best friend goes to La Salle. She’s taking up Accounting.

I know I’d be scared too if I didn’t have any of my friends with me if I were in your position so I understand what you’re saying, butI think once you’re in Ateneo, it won’t really matter if you know a lot of people previously and stuff. Just look at it as a great opportunity to meet new people

By the way, the Daria layout is awesome
name on July 14, 2003 06:06 pm
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