You’re the closest thing to perfect but the farthest thing away from me

February 2nd, 2003 with 220 views

Is there such thing as post-menstrual syndrome? I certainly hope so because I’ve been feeling rather moody today. A while ago I was watching E!, and there was this show/segment about the top 25 romantic movies of all time. I didn’t recognize most of those movies, but watching the segment kind of depressed me. I don’t get how relationships seem to work out so well in the big screen. I mean in reality, none of that crap really happens. I must say though, that my favorite romantic movie of all time is City Of Angels. For some reason, sad endings don’t make me feel as lonely as happy endings do.

I remember once in Christian Living Ed. (CLE) class last week, we were talking about “authentic love”. My CLE teacher told me that she observed from my reactions that I’m afraid of commitment. That surprised me. I thought she would say something like how I’m way too young to be jaded, that I’ll meet lots of guys in college, blahblahblah. But afraid of commitment? How can I be afraid of commitment if I don’t even have anyone to commit to?

Don’t get me wrong, I’m really not in a hurry to get into a relationship right now. But at times like these…I wish I was loved back.

Well. I suppose I should stop brooding about love now and start spending my time on more productive things.

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4 Responses to “You’re the closest thing to perfect but the farthest thing away from me”

BLOGGED ---at the-protagonist.net on February 2, 2003 05:02 pm
[...] that I’m afraid of commitment. That surprised me. [read more?] lauryn @ 06:02 am [...]
shine on February 3, 2003 07:17 am
scared to get hurt? it’s part of relationships. then again, the kiss and make up part will make u forget everything bad that’s happened (for the meantine anyway =p)
Kats on February 3, 2003 08:15 am
Your last words make are suprising to me! I think love is one of the most prductive things in life. And even more productive if there’s no-one to commit to, or if you’re not capable to commit! It makes me feel alive (even if it feels like you’re missing something, or not). It makes me ’see’ myself, and grow. I am sure that I cannot commit myself to anyone at this moment, and that feeling is sometimes painfull, but most of the time realy inspiring and ‘fresh’.

I am working on my own log since one week. Everyday I come to visit your site, I think it’s great! Love to read the things you write.

Bye for now,

Katherijne
aaron on February 3, 2003 11:37 am
“Love sucks!”
-Adam Sandler,The wedding singer
ciao!