I think I was dreaming up some thoughts that were seemingly possible…with you

February 1st, 2003 with 139 views

Here’s my Chinese Horoscope for the Year of the Goat:

“Look forward to twelve months of tremendous excitement and change. This year will be a good time to start a new romance.”

Hmm. Maybe that means I’ll be going to New York for college after all. I mean, I’m sure I’ll have a blast at Ateneo, but tremendous excitement and change sounds more like the Big Apple. I have many doubts about the “new romance” though. I’m not really interested in anyone in particular here, and I don’t think I will be for a very long time. I dunno. I think guys can all be so stupid.

Can somebody answer this for me please? Is it just me, or are all the guys in the world really, really obsessed about sex? Or do all the guys who like me just happen to be really, really obsessed about sex? When guys look at girls, do they see them as women or just walking vaginas? I’m seriously starting to doubt that decent guys exist. The moment a guy compliments me, or dishes out positive adjectives to describe me, I know that he’s not for real. Call me paranoid, but I just get this really creepy feeling when they do that. It’s as if they’re just bullshitting me so they can get into my pants (skirt?). Hah, yeah, like I’m stupid enough to ever let that happen.

So yeah. Love life sucks. If I will ever trust anyone enough to actually have one.

I have just finished reading all these stuff about The Ring and now I’m too scared to go to my room. And the sucky thing is, I took a two-hour nap this afternoon so I’m probably going to fall asleep at around 2 a.m. tonight, imagining the whole time that Sadako is out there somewhere in the darkness to get me…

Shit.

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7 Responses to “I think I was dreaming up some thoughts that were seemingly possible…with you”

BLOGGED ---at the-protagonist.net on February 1, 2003 08:02 pm
[...] s out there somewhere in the darkness to get me…[read more] lauryn @ 09:01 am [...]
Oui on February 1, 2003 10:43 pm
I’m a guy, but I don’t think about it all the time. I guess that depends on the person, really.

Are you going to the Ateneo? Hmm.. meeting my mega-annoying cousin isn’t far-fetched, then. He’s gonna be a polsci major, too. Whatever. I KNOW I should’ve gotten myself into polsci..
kychie on February 2, 2003 05:57 am
hey lauryn! we have the same chinese horoscope :)anyway, what college are you planning to go to in NY?
suezye on February 2, 2003 07:44 am
hey lauryn,

in my opinion, boys always want to have sex, if you let them, otherwise they’ll be gay. However, they don’t think of sex all of the time.

Just be cool about it.
Margaux on February 2, 2003 01:28 pm
Well, yeah… I have the same sentiments. There are times that whenever I’m with guys all they talk about is sex, some girl, some porn movie, something “green”. Not all the time, though… but they do think and talk about it quite a lot. I don’t know why. I mean, they can be really decent at times. Jeez. They confuse me too! Wow, I do hope you really get into Sarah Lawrence!
Jason (Jubblegum) on February 2, 2003 02:28 pm
Yep…I must admit that guys only think/talk about sex…and sports…and wrestling…and cars…but women also talk about specifics to them…like shopping…and clothes…and guys…and other stuff that I can’t think of because I am not a female.
What was just said was a stereotype…but could very well all be true. It is just the way people are. I for one don’t think about cars…I think about video games…and television…It is not the same when you look for different qualities in someone…
And excuse me if anything I said was confusing…because I am watching sports while I am typing this. =P
Jayden on February 2, 2003 06:24 pm
bull-tae! men don’t think about sex all the time! (only every 10 minutes)