Being attractive is the most important thing there is
For some reason, it felt kind of good to be back in school again. And I don’t mean that I missed my classmates or the stupid school administration or anything like that. I think I kind of missed my old, daily routine. No reherasals to interrupt the sameness of an ordinary school day. I’d probably be sick of the monotony after another week or two though. Still, it also feels good to occupy myself again with schoolwork. Which isn’t even much–not right now anyway. We won’t have school on Thursday because of the World Meeting of Families and I intend to do all my homework on Wednesday night so I can spend Thursday playing Shadow Hearts. I want to finish it before I get way too busy with school; if I wait too long I’ll forget the story. Talk about a waste of effort.
I heard that the graduating students will have their final exams on the first week of March. Which means that graduation will probably held around mid-March instead of the planned April 1 date. Woot! 
I swear, the school administration is so mean. I mean what kind of twisted person schedules a graduation on April Fool’s Day? I talked to Alys a little today and basically, we are both totally dying to graduate. I was kind of surprised to hear that from her, since she’s so popular and all. I noticed that all the popular people want to prolong their high school years and the time they can be “superior” to the rest of the people. Popularity, if it gets into your head, can be a bad thing. But Alys got accepted into Ateneo through the summer program, and I guess there’s something about being accepted into a prestigious university that makes you want to leave high school now.
And speaking of popularity getting into people’s heads, Michelle has been getting on my nerves lately. Actually, she’s been getting into my nerves since the beginning of the school year. She actually told Angelica once that we’re the exact opposites. What she said went something like, “It’s like..Lauryn doesn’t like big crowds. And, I hang out with so many people in school, like the TL and Chiqs. She doesn’t.” Since when did I not like being in big crowds? There’s nothing like moshing in a rock concert that makes you feel so..free. That is, unless you get bruised or something. And why would I want to hang out with such shallow people? Most of them will probably be losers in college. They’re only tough when they’re with their friends, but they’re cowards when you confront them without people to back them up.
Here’s a difference between Michelle and me: she goes out with girls; I don’t. And in spite of her pretty face, she’s also the kind of girl who doesn’t get noticed by guys unless she totally flirts with them or something. Michelle has a crush on the tall-lanky-guy-who-reminds-me-of-someone-I-know and she is constantly flirting with him. In the end, he spends most of his time with this other girl in my batch who he likes.
On the other hand, I’m not exactly a guy magnet. But I don’t really need to flirt in order to get noticed either.
Another difference: I can dance so much better than she can. During the hip-hop party at school, I caught a glimpse of her “dancing” and I was so embarassed for her that I couldn’t bear to watch. She looked like–to put it mildly–a Sex Bomb Dancer. For real. I’m sure that wasn’t the effect she was hoping to give out, but that’s what it looked like. Gyrations and all. Nikki told me that she saw Michelle dance up to one of the guys in the play, and the expression on his face was less than thrilled. The poor guy.
I dunno why I always find myself wrinkling my nose whenever I hear her name. I don’t think I’m jealous of her–I know that I am better than her in so many ways. But Angelica said that she noticed some sort of rivalry between us ever since the start of senior year. I suppose that’s what it is–petty, high school rivalry. Why she would be jealous of me though, I really wouldn’t know why. She’s got all that she wants–popularity, a perfect complexion, a sort of important role in the school play. I have to admit that I kind of wish I had those things too. But otherwise, I’m perfectly contented with my life right now.
It’s so sad how Michelle and I used to be such good friends during our early high school years. Now, our friendship–if you can still call it that–is nothing more than a fake cheery “Hi! I miss you!” when we pass each other on the hallway.
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[...] tupid school administration or anything like that.[read more?] lauryn @ 05:52 am [...]
I don’t quite remember how I stumbled upon your journal…
Anyway, I thought I’d tell you this— Almost all the annoying popular people in high-school wind up in dead end jobs and turn out to be lonely losers when they get older. When they go to college they try to hang on to the “popular life” by pledging fraternities/sororities but in the end what are they left with? A bunch of fake friends. I’m not saying all the popular people in high school are bad, but rather that they don’t always understand the important things. Not being one of the popular is sometimes a blessing. Be happy for who you are and what you have. Once high school is over everything changes… most likely you won’t see any of those people ever again after a few years. You sound like a very nice, well grounded person. Keep that quality always.
I wish you luck in all your travels, keep your head up and your mind open.
~merry meet, merry part, and merry may we meet again~
Popular kids are powerless when separated from their little group. And if they are… they’re just a bunch of idiots who walk around thinking social significance is a big issue. I don’t hate them, I just think they’re misinformed.
By the way, you have such pretty layouts.
hi, I found your page somehow and I really enjoy reading your blogs. They’re funny and honest. And I agree with ladybug. Most of the ppl from my high school who were popular are not doing so well in life now. Most of them are single moms or have dropped out of universities because they really have nothing going for them. Once I started university, I met so many amazing people that can’t even compare to the ones I went to high school with.
Well, just hang in there.. you only have a few more weeks…
Hi Lauryn,
It’s been about 3 years since my email to you about “Why 20 year olds read your journal”. I’m graduating from university this year… something I dread, frankly. I love the life I’ve lead the past several years and NOT looking forward to the “real world”. Blech.
Trust us. You are going to have the time of your life once you leave that dreadful school and classmates of yours.
Enjoy your new life to the fullest!!! Congratulations!
I saw her pic in your gallery and you’re way prettier than her. She looks so much older than 16, IMHO.
thanks for all your supportive comments