People are never what they appear to be
Grr. I really hate it when certain Filipinos stereotype me as an “elitist” just because I speak English and go for guys who do the same. Well excuse me. It’s not my fault I feel more comfortable expressing myself in English than in Filipino, although I’m fairly good at reading and writing in Tagalog. Everything I want to say can be said in English, whereas when I talk in Filipino I need time to grope for the right words. But that doesn’t mean I don’t like my mothertongue; I’m simply just not used to it. And I’m not proud of that either. In fact I’ve been trying to improve my Tagalog the past few days. But I still need to speak it more. As for going for guys who speak in English, well, unfortunately not all guys who don’t know how to talk in English know how to use correct Tagalog either. I mean…if I hear someone say Astig! one more time, I am going to scream. It’s just a matter of choice, okay? I wish people would just realize that and respect it.
Oh, and FYI–speaking good Tagalog doesn’t necessarily make you a good activist. Bobo.
So much for that.
Anthony and Christopher stayed over last night and we spent hours playing Playstation2 games and messing around with Anthony’s new digital camera. Sometimes I wonder what it feels like if they were my brothers instead of my cousins. I bet it would be a lot of fun because we all get along great. But then again, living with each other everyday might put a strain on our relationships and we’d probably end up fighting a lot. I dunno. I wish I had more brothers and sisters, and if that were so, I wish I’d be the youngest child or the middle child. Being the eldest sucks cos you have to feel your way through life, with not much people to give you advice or guide you. I don’t know why, but I feel more comfortable hanging out with people who are older than me. There’s something about being around younger people that makes you feel that you have to appear like the wholesome role model that you aren’t. And I don’t like that.
I have a stiff neck, and it hurts.
Here’s my New Years Eve Photolog.
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whoa, i also have a stiff neck… heheh
hahah, yeah, i must admit i feel uneasy (cringy) when my friends say “woooooooo astig pare, gago!” stuff like that. its like… i don’t know.
So anyway… ignorant party… what’s Astig mean?
Astig - slang term for “tigas” meaning tough. When used in a sentence though becomes harder to explain, maybe a “filipino ghetto” way of saying “neat!” or “cool!” when a guy is tyring to boast of his machismo. Some other feeling arrogant friends or dude may say “astig! pare.” Pare, friend, brother or or a ghetto way “dhogg” I think I did justice to that explanation unless other filipino readers or Lauryn’s journal will think otherwise. Happy new year to all.
Ahh, Lauryn, I can relate. People who hear me speaking in fluent English think I’m anti-Chinese. People who hear me speaking in fluent Mandarin just think I can’t speak English properly.
Why would you waste such time looking for a guy whose fluent in english while a guy who can express his love more than that. You’ll get a tough time finding your true love if set your standards real high. But please don’t get me wrong..speaking in english is a plus for a guy but not all the time. (Its only an advice and I hope you’ll think about or realize it.)
I get tons of raised eyebrows when I speak in spotless English — “If you’re so particular with grammar, enunciation, diction, inflection, and the entire language la-di-da, ba’t ka nag-BS Chem??!” — Darn. The answer’s quite simple, really. Good English speakers don’t ALWAYS root for a degree in English.
Tagalog’s fine, but it’s generally harder to learn. I still remember all those lessons on the particulars/mechanics/specifics of the English language, but I frankly can’t distinguish ‘hugnayan’ from ‘langkapan’, in spite of almost 9 years of balarila.
In responce to J - If you don’t set your standards high, you end up getting a bunch of assholes.
Well I wouldn’t mind going out with a guy who’d rather speak in Tagalog, so long as he doesn’t speak jologs Tagalog and his English is not baduy.
If I must write this, I know, I know it shouldn’t be here, but it’s the only way I can ensure your reading.
I happened to see some of the old entries on the blue site you’ve got. Your writing reminds me of Jessica Zafra (except I haven’t read an entry about your thoughts global/universal domination), very spontaneous and entertaining. Almost like.. the incarnation of the girl with her head coming off (from nickelodeon). Keep writing!
hey, i missed a preposition over there (it should read ‘thoughts on global..’). I swear I typed an ‘on’.. oh well. I’m a little obsessive-compulsive with my (and, fine, other people’s) grammar (and, trust me, it’s not my fault). I knew there had to be a valid (in my world, at least) reason why it’s nearly tomorrow and I’m still up.
A mans characteristic is not judge by thier tounge but rather on thier action. You won’t get a bunch of assholes if your wise. Im a guy and I bet most of the guys will even like a girl whose only simple but presentable enough. I sure do hate people talk in tagalog in a jologs way. But there are a lot of guys who can speak straight tagalog or english without any accent. And maybe if your inspirational enough..you can change a guy.!
“Learn to love your language”.
It’s not bad to speak Enlish as long as you don;t make it as a tool be make you “feel” superior over those who are not good in English.