I don’t think that you know what you’ve been missing
I just finished doing half of my Home Ecs project (a wooden CD rack) and it involved black paint and glitter. I had no idea that the paint would be impossible to remove once it sticks to your skin. Naturally I didn’t want to show up at school tomorrow with my arms half-covered in black paint, and I had no choice but to use paint thinner to remove it. I now reek of Boysen and thinner, and I’m starting to feel slightly dizzy from all the noxious gasses they’re emitting. Not to mention that my hands look really gross and that my palms feel rougher. But I guess it’s all worth it cos CD rack (or rather, the wood) looks really nice, and I’m proud of the fact that I did it all by myself instead of asking someone else to do it for me. Everyone else made their boyfriends, suitors or guy best friends to do their projects because they’re all completely clueless when it comes to dealing with wood. Not me. I like being self-reliant.
One of the things I’ve been kind of pondering about right now is what makes a person a loser. As in a consummate, 3-dimensional, I-wouldn’t-be-caught-dead-seen-with-you-in-public kind of loser. A couple of weeks ago, Alex moved out of our neighborhood into this house her family had built. Stephen went there once and he said it was a total palace; it looked a lot like Greenbelt 3. I told him I’d rather live in a shack and have true friends, than live in a mansion and have zero friends. It’s so weird–her parents are quite rich, they’ve got fancy cars, and they can afford designer clothes and annual trips to the States. But she still doesn’t know how to dress properly (tight jeans and baggy shirts?) and for some reason, has no friends at all. It’s kind of sad cos I heard that during her prom night, she sat all by herself in a table because nobody would talk to her. And then there’s this girl, Hazel, who used to go to my school. Once, the high school students in my school went to this church and Hazel was there. She saw us (my batchmates and me), and we made eye contact with her but instead of saying hi we just kind of averted our eyes and snickered. I guess people like Alex and Hazel emit weirdo vibes that prevent other people from making friends with her. Not that I’m making fun or anything but really. Ever since I suddenly thought of them out of nowhere, I really couldn’t stop help wondering exaclty what makes losers losers. It makes me feel kind of grateful though. I mean, in spite of the lack of excitement in my social life and the fact that a lot of people at school still don’t understand me, at least I still have friends.
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You, my dear… are the biggest fucking loser I have come across… you say you’re a non-conformist, but you talk shit about a girl for wearing “tight jeans and baggy t-shirts.” Why the fuck can’t a person just be who she wants to be without you attacking her and calling her a “loser?” The word “loser” is completely subjective. Who the fuck are you to judge and label another human being? “Non-conformists” don’t believe in labels, or in attacking people for the way they choose to present themselves. I seem to recall one post you made where in the same paragraph, you claimed to be a non-conformist, then said you changed your style of dress to please your friends. What the FUCK is that? This girl isn’t trying to please anyone but herself, and I applaud her, because in the long run, she’s the only one who can judge her own “worthiness.”
Lauryn, an observation from experience: It’s too early in the game to tell who the real losers in life are. The outcome in a couple years can often be surprising.
Besides, it’s very mean to call someone a loser just because you think she’s “weird”. That says more about you than her.
miss of the moon and everyone else: I’ve read lauryn’s entries from the start. So before jumping the gun at lauryn, read the “under the bridge” (1998-1999) and “here be the girl” (1999-2000) journal entries about these 2 girls . If I remember right, alex and hazel were mentioned during those times. Not that I am defending Lauryn but she must have her reasons for saying that and the drama that these 2 girls had done to lauryn’s life.
LOL losers? Let me just add another definition:losers are those who are cowards and post here anonymously . (points to miss moon)
Although I wouldn’t agree on Lauryn judging people based on physical appearance and stuff,but hey,come on people,I guess some of us really have to admit that we do make occasions where we fail to hold up to our personal ideals. So why should those of you who are offended with Lauryn’s entry get so mad and just throw vulgar words to her? I don’t think you’ll want to be treated that way if others disagree with your thoughts. I guess it’s really good enough to just point out politely to Lauryn about her mistake in stereotyping & she’ll get your message just fine. No need all the fuss on those vulgar words so keep them to yourself!;)
I suppose you must be right, Miss of the Moon (IP: 64.161.164.37 , adsl-64-161-164-37.dsl.lsan03.pacbell.net), since you’re such an expert about me. You don’t really *know* those girls I was talking about and anyway, I was just wondering what made them losers. I don’t see why you’re so upset about that…maybe you can relate? *sigh* You don’t have to read my journal, you know, if you don’t like me.
Lee, quoting entries from 1999 and 2000? 2003 is already around the corner. You’re not doing Lauryn any good.
John, that’s old. You need more substance if you want to be helpful.
(Lauryn, you really need to make new friends who have a little more intelligence and have the guts to tell you when you’re wrong.)
Shirlyn, good points. I’m sure lots of people have just kept the vulgar words to themselves.
Lauryn, I grew up in similar environments so I actually know what you’re talking about and I know your type. Just wait and see. You’ll be very surprised how things turn out a couple years from now when it really counts.
I suppose so…but hey, I’m in high school. I’m supposed to be catty and shallow at this stage in life. Give me a break. But thanks anyway, for being honest.
well… in my opinion, i don’t think people should be called losers. yeah, i’ve called people losers to their faces(but we are both joking about it). people dress the way they like to dress, no one sets the dress code in todays society, what we see is trend setting and not all people go down that path. not everyone is also a people person… like me for example. sure i have friends online and back home and where im stationed now… but i like to be by myself sometimes and just avoid my friends, thats just the way i am. does it make me a loser for not following the latest trend setting to fit in or to make friends with people??? the answer is no, i live life the way it will make me happy, maybe… just maybe they like to live and do things their own way and not care what other say. just… think about it for a while.
Is it safe to classify stalkers as losers?
Ooh you have my IP… *runs and hides*