I never knew how I felt till the day you were gone

Man, I hate school. I half-wish there’d be a storm tomorrow because I’ve got a unit test in English and I have to memorize all these names from the Iliad. I like Greek mythology, but it’s not fun anymore when you’re forced to know the names by heart. I’m also worried about Calculus because I don’t understand how to prove if a parallelogram can be a rhombus. Physics? Don’t even ask. To top it all off, the UPCAT is next Sunday already and I wonder if I’m even ready for it. *sigh* I’m gonna kill whoever told me that senior year is gonna be a piece of cake, because it is not.

On the bright side, I might be going to a party tomorrow with some friends from school. Yeah!! ^_^ That is, if it doesn’t rain so hard. The only reason my dad allowed me to go out is because it starts at around seven, which means I can go home before midnight. I really hope it pushes through, because parties that start that early rarely ever happen. If it gets moved to next week, I don’t think I can go. This doesn’t sound like me, but I need to devote my time studying for the exams and the UPCAT. Especially for the exams. I don’t think I’m doing so great in class, and if I don’t get decent scores in my exams (which is 25% or 30% in all subjects) I am so screwed.

I really need to do some cute guy hunting tomorrow. Kriya and Glaiza are gonna be coming with me to the party, and whenever they’re around we always meet cute guys. And I *really* need to meet someone else. I think I have to get over Amarant before my feelings for him become serious. I have a suspicion that he may like someone else, which is a major bummer. Now I’m not saying that I’m aspiring to be his girlfriend or anything. I bet he’d still think of me as a friend even though I was the last girl in the world. But don’t you just feel horrible when the person you like likes someone else? It’d be really great if Amarant had no prospects at all. At least I might have a chance, even if it’s a very small, remote chance. I really don’t think I’m his type. But if I find out that he does like someone else…I don’t know what I’m going to do. Angelica thinks I should tell him that I like him and I will. But not right now; I think I need to wait a couple of months. It’s too early, and I’m not even very serious about him (yet!). But I think I’m going to drop not-so-subtle hints from time to time. Just so he could sort of know. He’s kind of clueless when it comes to girls but hopefully he’ll get it…or not. *sigh* I found this song that really describes my feelings for him (I Miss You So Much by TLC). Sometimes I wish I never got to like him in that way at all.