All that I could never overcome

I spent my first day as a sixteen-year old taking my guitar lessons and getting my hair trimmed afterwards. There’s nothing like a good haircut to start off the year–I have a feeling that being sixteen might be a tad interesting. Sometimes it pays to be a bit optimistic….

After my haircut, my mom and I had some iced drinks at a coffee shop which is right next door to the beauty salon. I’ve been going there more often ever since I noticed that cute guy who works there. I know I’m being very obvious but unfortunately I still haven’t worked up the nerve to talk to him or ask him his name. I did smile at him today though–finally. *rolls eyes* It’s totally pathetic but what can I do? When I’m around people I have a crush on I become this wimpy, idiotic, brainless version of myself. And I hate it a lot! What’s gonna happen to me in college if this keeps up? It’s not like I actually wanna go out with this guy, but by now I should at least be able to initiate a conversation with a total stranger whom I happen to find cute. Apparently, it seems like it will take me awhile before I can muster up that kind of confidence.

I’m getting quite bored with the songs that I have. I usually rely on other people to recommend songs for me but since Annie isn’t around right now I go to The Art of the Mix for songs I might like. It’s this website I discovered a couple of days ago, and I thought I might find something suitable to my taste because a lot of people submit their mixes there. Unfortunately it seems like most of them are into these obscure bands. 90% of the artists that they include in their mixes are artists I have never ever heard of. Who the hell are The Mountain Goats or Pedrio the Lion anyway? I guess I’m more of a mainstream person, though I usually appreciate all sorts of music. I tried downloading some of these songs, but I don’t really like them that much. Bah..