Again it goes unnoticed

School was all right..nothing special as always. I think I might be slipping into one of my antisocial moods again. Lately I haven’t been feeling too comfortable around people. It’s like…I don’t really feel like being around anybody, but after awhile I start feeling awkward cos everybody in the room’s talking to somebody while I just sit there by myself and pretend to sleep. I find it very strange how I’d rather stay silent than talk, and when I do want to talk I can never find the right things to say to people. Even when I’m around my friends, I feel like I don’t know them. Or like they don’t know me. And that neither of us really cares. Whatever…I’m a loner dottie a rebel.

I’m also feeling kind of down because Glyka says she’s not sure she can make it to the Pulp Rock Awards next Saturday, and she’s like the only one among my friends who appreciates rock music. The rest of my friends would rather go to the Side A concert in Don Bosco on Friday…whatever!!! I’m dying to go to the Pulp Rock Awards and I don’t know what to do if Glyka won’t be able to come!! Well actually, I know two groups of people I could go with should Glyka not show up but I’m not exactly looking forward to chilling with them. might be there since she and her friends like Sandwich. And I get along with them pretty well but I dunno how I can meet up with her and knowing them, they’ll probably show up really late. The Chiqs will be there, of course, since they are die-hard Slapshock fans. But then I’d rather be trampled on by a mob of crazy, white-trash mosh pitters than go to the Rock Awards with them. This is the huge disadvantage of going to such a dinky, little, all-girls school. No diversity at all! *sigh* Well it’s not yet completely hopeless, I’ve got more than an entire week. And I hope Glyka’s mom will change her mind by then!

I’m thirsty.