I don’t want to waste my time and become another casualty of society

Just finished working on my newest journal layout and I’m really happy about it–I’ll be uploading it on November 1. Well other than that, today was a rather bad day for me. It wasn’t bad bad but you know, compared to my better days today was, well…lousy. I thought I’d only be with Dina and Glyka today and of course I was cool with that. But then we ran into three of the Chiqs and to my horror Dina and Glyka approached them. Naturally I had no choice but to tag along. We ended up spending most of our time smoking and chilling at G-Spot. G-Spot is this billiards place where the people at my school hang out with Bosconians. It’s actually a pretty okay place; the music and the ambiance is good but the crowd is bad so I wouldn’t dream of going back there again. Now that I think about it, anybody who thinks they’re somebody goes to G-Spot to chill and to smoke. And for the record it was the others who were yosi-tripping, not I. They all smoke like freaking chimneys; they must’ve inhaled a whole factory’s worth of smoke and poison. An hour and a half of breathing in air pollution. So despite repeated applications of large doses of perfume, I still stunk to the high heavens of cigarettes by the time I got home, a scent I particularly detest.

Dina was with this guy named Glen, and I don’t know if they’re dating each other but I’m assuming that they are. Their limbs were languidly intertwined with each others’ practically the entire time, which made me feel really uncomfortable. I don’t know why but I feel really weird when I see people getting all mushy-mushy over each other. I always look away during kissing scenes in movies..my dad doesn’t need to tell me to close my eyes. Some Bosconians were with us too, the kind of guys I would wrinkle my nose at and think, “Loser!” Although they ignored my presence the Chiqs were actually nice to me. But everyone was talking about all these people I didn’t know. I couldn’t relate to a single thing they were saying so I just sat there feeling like a prize idiot and pretended to smile and laugh along with them. But inside I was screaming, Get me the hell out of here!

So out of place I felt that I went home an hour early. *sigh* All right, status check: my barkada is pissed at me for reasons I cannot fathom. I haven’t divulged any of their shallow secrets to the school population who doesn’t give a damn. I haven’t acted sarcastic towards them, therefore their ultra-sensitive egos couldn’t have been damaged. I’m really good friends with Glyka but I do not fit in with her kind of people. Believe me, today is the last day I’ve tried and I’m really convinced. Unfortunately, she’s the only one of my friends who really like to go out–my barkada (if they still are my friends) only go out after the quarterly exams. Kriya likes going out though, and she’s nice but she can be a tad bit snobbish and besides she only likes to go out at night. Kapst, Glaiza and Annie are nice too but I’m not really that tight with them.

Umm…I hate high school?