It looks like we’re wearing some kind of disguise

I wish I went out at night. I’m practically a vampire; I hate sunlight and I don’t know why but I’m so attracted to how the entire world looks so much prettier at night. Unfortunately, none of my friends except Kriya and sometimes Glaiza go out at night which really sucks. When I’m older I will spend my days cooped up working or something, and then night time having fun.

I had Spanish class this morning and I was supposed to go out with Kriya and Glaiza to watch the Johnson & Johnson Cheering Competition afterwards. Unfortunately, Glaiza still had some sort of hangover from the party she went to last night so Kriya and I didn’t really feel like going anymore. But there’s supposed to be some championship tomorrow afternoon as well so at least we’ll still be able to watch. I kind of wish I wasn’t going out this weekend because as I’ve mentioned before, I’m having my PMS. And for some reason my skin erupts in pimples and I always tend to eat a lot the week before I get my period. So you can just imagine how horrible I must look at this very moment. Not only that but when I’m with people like Kriya and Glaiza, I wear really feminine clothes. But when I tried on my planned outfit, I looked so awful and fat and just simply disgusting in it. Yeech. Perhaps I won’t eat a single bite tomorrow so I can feign a thin body. I notice that if my tummy is empty I don’t look and feel as ugly. I think it’s important that I look pretty tomorrow because I’m going to be around really pretty and kikay girls and if I don’t feel at least cute, my self-esteem will probably go down by a thousand points for the rest of the day. It’s a Lauryn thing. I know it sounds kind of stupid, but that’s how I feel when I’m around pretty girls and it just so happens that I’m not in an I’m-an-irresistable-goddess mood at that very moment.

I found out one good thing about my Spanish classmates though. They like to read the same kind of books that I do! They’re all working already but that doesn’t matter cos I can still relate to them when it comes to things like movies and music and going out and yeah, books. They’re like, the first (offline) people I’ve met who don’t cringe at the sight of a really thick book. Finally, I can now talk about a certain book I like without anyone looking at me like I was some kind of freak or something. One of my classmates is going to lend me one of her books called Anthropology and 800 Other Short Stories which is a compilation of morbid and funny stories. Sounds interesting. It’s when I’m with people like them that I start wishing I was in college already. Apparantly, most people my age don’t appreciate the fact that I’m always myself and not some sort of monsterous creation by today’s teenage trends.

Kylee is like, the only cat I’ve ever known who enjoys my baking. Seriously! I know cats aren’t supposed to taste sugar but when I made oatmeal cookies before, I left my half-eaten cookie on the table. When I came back to get it, I saw my cat nibbling at it, and then finally ripping it apart. Which really surprised me because I didn’t think cats ate cookies. I thought it was just because of the oatmeal but then this afternoon I made macaroons and then left them on the kitchen counter. When my sister went to get one she saw a macaroon that was mostly eaten, rolling on the floor. Who else could’ve eaten that but the cat? I may be a lot of things, but I’m not a pig. And my mom’s such a neat freak so she couldn’t have eaten that and then tossed it on the floor when she was full. Aren’t cats just soooo adorable?