Love alone is not enough to hold us up

As each day goes by, the world ending soon or World War 3 starts to sound like a very certain possibility. We talked about the Second Coming in school today and it says in the Bible (Mt.24) that one of the signs of the Final Judgement or the end of the world is rumours of war. And we’re certainly getting a lot of that right now. I can’t get over the possibility that I will be cheated out of the rest of my life just because some stupid loser decided to crash a plane into the WTC. I’m not even sixteen yet! It’s a very depressing thing to think of and no matter what I do I can’t get it out of my mind. My Religion teacher gave me some hope this afternoon though. She said that all that stuff in the Book of Revelations is true but we could delay that if we only pray to God. Nothing is impossible with Him. Now I know that some of you guys think that the Bible is nothing but a fairy tale, something you tell the kids so they’d be good. I used to think it was so. But then I read the Book of Revelations, listened to Dona when she preached at me and finally decided for myself that this shit is true and I don’t want to suffer eternity in a pit of fire. So yeah, I’ve been praying for world peace a lot the past few days..I think everybody needs to. I certainly don’t want everything to reach to a point where the terrorists will use biological weapons on you. In case you don’t know, that’s a very slow and painful death.

School was stressful. Actually, school is okay; it’s chemistry that’s stressful. I had to go to my tutor the moment I got home because I did not understand that shit at all. My teacher explains everything really fast, as if we could easily absorb and remember what ionization properties are. But all of us get totally lost somewhere in the black dots of our thick chemistry textbook. After each class, all of us have these “huh?” expressions on our faces. Although I really don’t, I start repeating “I love chemistry, I love chemistry” like a mantra so maybe I could get some positive vibes that would help me understand everything. I’m not really sure if it worked; I’ll see when I study everything again later.

Hopefully I’ll have more cheerful news tomorrow.