I hope that you’ll always know how to take my breath away

School wasn’t so interesting today. I came to school feeling somewhat antisocial but my mood perked up when my teacher announced our ranks. I thought I would get a really low rank, like rank 25 or 30 because I know I’m no genius in Chemistry and Trigo. Just when I was on the verge of tears, ready to moan and cry about what a complete and total idiot I am, I received the paper that contained my rank. With shaking hands and a pounding heart, I opened it. To my surprise, I saw the number 13 staring up at me in black ink. I was unable to believe my eyes. I stared at it for an entire minute and then turned it upside-down, just in case it was 31 in reverse. Nope…it was definitely 13. What a relief! I felt a million times better after that..I guess I’m not such a hopeless case after all. I was so glad about my rank that I actually found my Chemistry test easy. And you know how Chemistry is like a foreign language to me. Whoo!

Tomorrow I’m going shopping with Maricris and Glyka for the stuff I need to bring to the retreat. I finished writing most of my palanca letters this afternoon..I love writing letters. Actually I only love writing letters to people I’m comfortable with. Sometimes I end up writing two or three pages worth, but I have absolutely no idea if they appreciate them or not. However, I love receiving letters, especially if they’re long. Speaking of letters, I haven’t gotten any from Casey yet although he promised he’d write me within a week or less. God, how I miss him. I wonder how he is right now? What is he doing? Does he miss everything he left behind? Or did he forget about it all already? Is that the reason for his silence? My biggest fear is that he’ll fall in love and run away with some German girl. If that happens then it’s over. I don’t mean to sound like a posessive girlfriend here or anything, but I don’t think I can ever love anyone as much as I love him. I mean, I’ve loved him ever since I was a kid. Not many people can say that about the people they love. Well anyway, he doesn’t seem to be the kind of person who falls in love easily. But still, these things could happen and I really, really, really hope they don’t! I know he probably doesn’t love me the way I love him. But still, I’d rather he stay single and not love me than see him fall completely for someone else!

Hmm, Star Wars is on. I love Star Wars, even though it was made in the Dark Ages and even though it’s for kids. It’s like one of those things I’ll like forever. Well anyway, I’d better go.