To forgive takes practice

chool sucked. I had this major headache the entire day, and if it’s because of my glasses I’d be surprised. I just changed my lenses two weeks ago..my eyes sure are strange. Because of that I was in a semi-grouchy mood today, although my head hurt too much for me to act grouchy at all. My classmates in particular were getting into my nerves. They act like they don’t get fed at home at all because whenever they see food inside the classroom, they go really wild. If for example, you bring a bag of chips and my classmates see it, they will enthusiastically devour the entire thing in less than five minutes. It’s pathetic. So whenever I eat in the classroom, I take great measures in making sure that it doesn’t look like I’m eating anything. On the other hand, there are the social climbers who bring lots of food to school. Sometimes they only give the “popular” people, but if they’re in a good mood they’ll give anything to anyone. They’re the only ones aside from my friends whom I ask food from. Otherwise, I think it’s really thick of me to get food from someone I normally pay no attention to.

I don’t know why, but I really feel like there are certain people who are secretly irritated at me. Normally I don’t really care about what anyone thinks of me, but the people whom I think are irritated at me are the ones I actually like talking to. And it feels rather degrading when you feel that the people you like (platonically) don’t like you back. For that reason I can’t really say if I’m dreading or looking forward to the retreat on Monday. I’ll be gone until Wednesday and just thinking of being stuck with my classmates (I just can’t decide if I like or dislike them) for three days makes me feel uneasy and sick. I’ll try to have a good time though..I hope all goes well.

I can’t wait for the weekend to come. I need my sleep.