Blessed are the losers, for they determine the winners

I’m sooooo pissed! I spent the better part of my afternoon printing out the walkthrough of Disc 1 of Final Fantasy VIII. And just as I was getting ready to play it, I realized that my FF8 game wasn’t there! At first I thought I had lent it to Chris, but I talked to him awhile ago and he said he didn’t borrow my FF8. I wouldn’t lend my games to anyone other than him and I searched all the possible places it could be in. What the hell am I going to do all sem break?! I could buy another game…but I hardly have two hundred bucks in my wallet and I need that cos I’m going out tomorrow night.

I wish I came to school later today, like around nine or something, cos the high school program didn’t start until ten. I endured two, painful hours of grade-school kids performing the lives of saints and kindergarten kids parading around in costumes. And then I fell asleep and woke up an hour later with this big-ass stiff neck. Our dance was okay. We were really good until around the middle, cos most of us had no idea that the steps have been changed. But even though I didn’t really know what I was doing, on account that I haven’t attended practice and all, I really had a lot of fun up in the stage. I didn’t stick around long enough to hear who the winners were, though, but I’m betting my money on the seniors–all the judges are so biased and no matter what anyone else does, the seniors always win. I don’t even know why we bother to compete–they say it’s so that our talents could be enhanced or whatever. But if they really wanted us to make use of our potentials, they would install a swimming pool, a tennis court and have a wall-climbing thingie installed in the gym. Or maybe organize a cheerleading team, a drama club and a glee club….you know, real extracurricular activities, not just competitions where nobody except the seniors win.

I’m listening to Pieces of You right now, which I haven’t done in ages. Each song reminds me about how much I love _….I miss him so much!