I don’t have time to be patient

Wow. I didn’t know there were so many bloodthirsty people out there. I got some feedback regarding yesterday’s entry, most of them from wannabe-humanitarians who just sit on their asses and debate about racism all day long. Sheesh. What good do debates do to change things anyway? Nothing. All you’ll gain from it are more enemies and zero friends. Sure, I’ll gain more enemies from this entry too but unlike other people, I don’t really give a damn if I get less readers or what.

I didn’t want to bring this up because I’ve outgrown this already . When I was ten (early 1996), back when the internet was basically new and everything , I formed an online club called Keypals Club International (KCI). Other kids formed girl clubs but there were too many of them so a friendship/penpal club was something I thought of. It was really a lot of fun cause I got to meet people from all sorts of countries. And it was through KCI that I met my closest online friends like Casey, Martin, Peter, Alex, Derek , Jeff , Nikki, Jill and lots more who are still online. Today, KCI has more than 20,000 members from 80 or so countries. I ‘ve stopped counting since 1998. So what’s the deal? Why am I mentioning KCI anyway? I mentioned it because I wanted to make it clear that I am not one of those people who just sit on their behinds talking and doing nothing. Much as I want to drop the club cause I’m too busy, lots of kids and schools still want to join . The mailing list is still very active with topics like racism , religion, music , blah, blah. Though KCI is a very small thing compared to what other people have done, at least I’ve tried to do something in order to help understand the different cultures a little more (there is no way I or anyone else can eliminate racism completely just by understanding cultures or having penpals). So what has it done anyway? I’ll never know what it has done worldwide but the club still exists after almost 4 years. To sum it all up, let me show you what a KCI member told me back when KCI was still new:
“One day WE will be the grownups who run the countries and because we were friends when we were little we won’t have any more wars! :)” -Kitty

I dunno, you are all entitled to your own opinions and I have to respect that. But I still think you’re being paranoid, though. I am talking about this entry. Imperialism sucks. I know our country suffered from American Imperialism. But it’s not the fault of the American people (especially those that can’t vote) or people from other western cultures. Should I diss my great grandfather who was one of those brought here to teach Filipinos the English language? Should I blame my American friends like Martin , Casey, Derek etc. for the painful part of our history? It’s the fault of their twisted government, sorry to say. We, kids will one day be the adults who will probably be part of the government. We can start thinking about what we can do for our future instead of whining about the past. So I think you should stop being so judging towards people just because they belong to imperialist cultures. It’s annoying the bullshit out of me. It really is.

I know I’m being mean. But I don’t care.

Someone made a review about my online journal and said I was trying hard to be American. That is so NOT TRUE. I know it sounds defensive but I am NOT TRYING HARD TO BE AMERICAN. That’s bullshit, man. If I was trying hard to be an American, why would I bother correcting my ethnicity when readers often mistake me for being American? If I was trying hard to be an American, then my hair should’ve been dyed blonde and I’d have invested on gallons and gallons of skin whitener, right? I have said that some Filipino traditions are so old-fashioned and corny but I will not trade being a Filipino for anything else. No way. So stop judging me like you knew me for ages and go get a f****** life.

I guess I can’t totally blame you guys. If I came across an online journal of a 6-year old acting like she knew more than she’s supposed to, I’ll probably hate her very much. So I guess I sort of understand. But what I really don’t get is, why do college-age girls bother picking on a thirteen-year old like me? What good will it do to them, anyway? I suppose it’s a mean streak they have. I always have that tendency to be mean to every little kid I see. But then I know more than to pick on a kid twice as young than me so I don’t bother. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t give a damn shit about them, it’s just that it’s becoming really annoying. Just don’t come back to my website if you hate me, okay? That’s not very hard to do.